in search of Ground O

i thought i knew it all..the solution to the intricacies that life throws my way.. i knew i was in control and every problem had to be faced in a rational manner.. i thought i had the right to judge others as they were either on my friend list or my ignore list.. i thought i knew just why someone strayed and deserved to be punished for the wrong deeds... well i thought .... just about too much.......

life knows how to humble one and elate the other.. i punished someone for wrong doing.. the only punishment i knew then was to alienate them from my life... thought it would matter to them.. it will change them in the way i believed was right .. and the only way it can be right .. so i was happy in my believe.. did miss those days of fun we had ... but always became bitter thinking about the path chosen .. accepting the punishment without even giving or asking an explanation.. yes i was happy..

until one fine day i see the world around... by removing the glasses of convenience which always took me to my make believe land where things as i said were my way .. lot has changed.. i wake from my slumber of ignorance.. i wake to a new ground.. where there are no rules .. where right is just a subjective to which side of the mirror are you standing to.. where Gluttony had reached level X and tyranny was worshiped in all its forms .. moral.. psychological .. physical.. monetary..

it was so dark in there i couldn't see my own shadow..... the only companion i thought i had then... yes i was alone and not much i could do about it as this was my path... the right path....

i sat there for a while .. trying to use senses i never was aware of ... started feeling with my soul n not my hands.. seeing with my hands n not my eyes... hearing with my heart n not my ears... yes in the darkness i rediscovered myself and the world around me

n then my eyes slowly got used to the darkness.. in which i could see a very faint ray... it was so dim i thought it was a little boy playing his games.. hiding and then smiling and then again hiding

.. but slowly i used all my senses to feel the light .. yes i could see it better now... and i could also see the world in the new light.. and then started my search for ground O.. no assumptions .. no conclusions.. no opinions.. no judgments.. no expectations.. yes my search as you would have guessed is on......