bombay meri jaan !!

I had gone a couple of weeks back to wasabi for an official lunch. This was my first time after the terror attack. I was too busy with work to give it a thought earlier in terms of this place was where it all had happened not many months ago.

But the moment I reached there, there was a part of me which was anxious and another which just wanted to go away from there as all the images on the tv started flashing back in my mind and when we went to the restaurant for lunch though its now located else where, I was not at ease. Of course to the world I was enjoying good company, interesting conversation and fine cuisine, inward I could not feel more restless wanting time to fast forward to the out of the hotel part.

Amidst all these silly pandemonium of thoughts running riot I noticed the captain, he was taking such good care of us as though nothing really had happened here after realizing this I started looking around at the other employees there and I was really amazed. Of course its been long so they would have got over the initial nerves but still the memories would not be that far,they have lived through the terror, they bared the brunt of it and yet they were there the moment it opened back. And here I am acting like a coward getting all panicky and silly.

The thought really humbled me and on my way out I silently saluted the spirit of taj and bombay.

love knows no age

today at the airport i saw something so touching and was so refreshing as i was so depressed seeing the scare of swine flu amongst all.. of course we all need to take precaution.. but anyways so heres what happened..

there was this elderly couple using the escalator. since the old man had an hand baggage he could not assist his wife and she fell on the escalator and was too frightened to get up, luckily i was using the stairs and seeing her fall i went on to bottom of the escalator to help her get up but she refused to as she was too scared so i had to brutally pull her.. well for one moment all of us seeing this scene were really freaked out

anyways she was safe but the way the old couple hugged each other after the escapade was soooooooo heart warming.. am sure they would have not even held hands in public (well am guessing from the conservative dress code they followed) and just then when they thought either one was hurt the spurt of emotions was very endearing...

i was so touched by their display of emotions.. i too came home and hugged everyone... baba hates it when i do it .. but what the heck ... life is too short to not show love for ur dear ones...

pleasant surprise

life is the best bundle of contradictions !! u can feel totally devastated one moment and next moment experience ecstasy.

i and my buddy were looking out for a decent dig to have dinner in Hyderabad and we were unsuccessful in finding any. asking locals we landed up in a food court of a mall which really had no real food so the hunt for another joint started, i some how remembered the name of another mall, but in hyderabad finding a rick to go places without being totally rigged seems impossible so i thought of asking someone about it.. there i see this very pretty lady and go out asking her for directions.. to my surprise she said she knew where it is and would drop us.

i thought i either heard her wrong or mis interpreted what she said !!.. but she repeated her offer and i was so pleasantly surprised and both me and my buddy could not believe our lucky stars... she was very kind and dropped us off at our destination and the food that we had really din matter as we were so content with the goodness of this lady who helped us out unconditional without even knowing us

who ever said the world is a bad place.. incidents like these make life worth looking forward to

days of our lives !!

today my alarm clock turned out to be a night mare buzzing way ahead of time.. i saw this absolutely illogical and freaky dream at 4 am and have been awake ever since so you can imagine my mood today and the events that proceeded this were in climaxing order of annoyance and out of turn that it wins the award for worst day so far this year..

now that am back home and have the luxury of retrospecting i realized i knew i should not have let things affect me and more i let them affect me.. more i alone get affected.. ya am rambling.. c how affected i am !!

basically its a vicious cycle and whats annoying and hilarious am enlightened about this fact and yet i let situations and people effect me !!

when things are not in our control, letting go seems so difficult when actually there is nothing to let go as it was not under your control anyways. its just a mirage, we love to believe that we can rule situations. We can only make best use of situations to ensure what we want is met. changing situations is just a myth. you use them to ensure that the end is in sync with your needs.

further more we would blame ourselves / our ancestors / god /cat / aliens .. just about anybody when the end is not the end we wanted !!

but then since nothing is really under our control and if whatever has to happen will happen then what is our role in this gamut of things ?
finding out what is our role is our eternal strive that keeps us kicking and alive, we in ways unknown to us right away fit perfectly in the big sphere of living, do our bit ... even if it is doing nothing and then wither away to unknown existence we call death to make things structured and logical for us

we love order, moment we do not know something, we transform the unknown to known form not trying to verify its existence but remain smug with the feeling we have typecasted it out..

yes this is how are the days of our lives.. living,,, feeling.. hurting.. healing.. fooling... getting fooled.. happy.. miserable.. disillusioned ..deluded...

but how we live does not matter as long as we bring in happiness to ourselves and others depended on us !!

my prince charming

whenever we see the hutch oh now vodafone advt of the pug, ma complains, dexter never learned to do anything and look at that pug earning his stay. but of course that was on a lighter side..

well many of my friends too have said the same to me of course not on lighter sight that dexter is an absolute no gooder. on hind side it was always the guy friends who said that.. but if i look at the species male they are mostly no gooders!! and dexter is following the rule if i go by their perception of dexter !!
(ha ha... ya call me fcp... but deep down u no am right !!)

anyway dexter may not help us with our daily chores like the pug but he is our bundle of joy, unconditional love and laughter.. with him all of us in the family become a kid.. he brings back the smile we had lost some place.. he makes us believe that we are indispensable for him & that we rock his world..

he wont hide his feelings and will be there to welcome us after a any kind of day..

well for this if i spoil him silly am i being wrong ??

yesterday i and dexy were on our evening walk.. on the road there were berry with thorns and i started clearing the path by removing them so that my Prince can walk safe..

he does mean the world to us.. gooder or no gooder aint matters !! as its only a perception..

who am I to judge

i was in the ladies second class compartment in the morning one day.. if you know bombay local trains .. u would know when i say it was jam packed even by harbour line standards.. anyways i was standing near the exit door as i could not manage to go in ..

a 30 something lady standing beside me started to cry, i found it weird but did not bother to ask her the reason.. my defense i was minding my business..

some other lady was kind enough to ask her why was she crying ... the protagonist replied she wanted to get down at the next station but could not due to the crowd and had an operation done which was hurting...

i that time too had no empathy for her as i thought she was faking the whole thing so that we made way for her...


later i thought.. who gave me the right to judge her !! especially when i get so miffed when others do that to me !!!

i felt embarrassed and started arguing with my conscience with real silly excuses.. but inside i knew i was wrong and resolved to not make this mistake again !

take a right then left, then again left... at the cross section ask some one for further direction !!

all our lives we look for direction.. as kids .. for the candy bar store .. as adolescence for the way to the heart of our crush.. as young professional.. quickest way to successful carrier .. as parents... way to make children's life more richer.. as sr citizen direction to get spiritually more evolved

and what if you do not look for directions ? then you are out of the race.. you are alone ..

why do we have to always fit into stereotype ? why is there no stereotype for people who are different ? why if you do not understand me .. it automatically makes me a mad person ? why do we follow directions given by others to find happiness for ourselves? why do we think we have all the coordinates mapped out and fit any body in the matrix?

when i get too bobbled thinking am i doing the right direction in life .. gabbar (anita my dear buddy) always tells me .. why do u worry .. v cannot fight destiny so whatever has to happen .. will happen.. so why worry..

ya baby why worry... if i dont find my direction.. destiny will...