dexter n tyson.. yeh dosti ....

tyson is dexter's 8 months old german Sheppard buddy.. the camaraderie they share is so heart warming .. dogs are truely the most endearing creatures i know on earth :)..


Hi Dexter.. muah


Hi Tyson.. muah back



Ok .. done with da niceties .. let da war begin ... bring it on !!

celebrating the spirit of woman ?

today's paper is full of discounts for woman to look good in order to celebrate woman’s day. media as usual glorifies the influential few under the sham of woman of substance .. most of them in lieu of achievement have to their credit a striking figure and botox face or they know the all important other people or have a credit record dat can buy them out.

is this what we stand for today ? and why do we need a special day to remind us of being a woman ? why is there no man's day ?

its funny we cry our throat sore that we do not need special treatment, we are equal to men and then we just go all out to prove just the opposite..



it truely no longer is a man's world as today the oppressed just got a more raw deal and the influential just played a more suave game is the story .. holds true for both sexes..

as a woman i today feel the world is my playground .. i can do things that my ma just dreamt of for me to do.. yes we have progressed .. the educated middle class has given woman a reason to celebrate but yet social stigmas and hypocrisy does mar some of the success but the story in villages is still ancient.. woman are still treated as mere objects of pleasure, child bearer and rarer, sex slave and other inhuman things. But not as a living.. feeling.. thinking creature ..

Please media highlight that and while celebrating woman’s day please focus on woman welfare and victories rather than frivolous things like beauty and fashion for woman.. as woman stands for much more than that .. try understanding her depth .. her spirit .. her joys .. her love.. try understanding her for a change..

one word for men.. please note that when we say NO we MEAN IT!!
i just find the hindi film romanticism about woman not speaking her mind out too out of place in today's scenario.. it might have happened some century back not any more!!

baby where have you been ??

as a kid i would do exactly what i felt, would smile when i wanted to, would cry my heart out when i needed to, talk my mind out with my limited vocabulary, nudge for the hug before it was due, throw tantrums for attention when overdue, fight tooth and nail literally for the toy i loved, mourn when my dear doll was not well, now am not dat proud of this reaction but what the heck .. that was me .. he he




i wonder what does the "process of growing up" have to necessarily take away from us our right of being what we are .. why cant we have reactions without being processed about their rightfulness ??

to begin with .. who defines right and wrong.. who defines boundaries.. who defines our thoughts .. is it education or lack of understanding that governs our believes .. our reactions and why has it to be so skewed towards righteousness.. why is everybody right and no one wrong ? why do we justify all that we do ? why do we fight a half hearted battle and then shove the blame of our folly on a hapless soul ? why is corruption so strong and bigotry so rampant.. why are obstacles so difficult to cross and the poor and the oppressed find them alone in their lives.. why is relation a means to fool ourselves about love around us ?.. what about love inside ? why so many gurus around to preach and none to follow ??

why .. baby where have you been ?? this has been the way of the world .. yesterday.. today and tomorrow.. you accept it and find a way around it .. u will be happy .. if you want to fight it .. learn from those who changed this world albeit for a little while .. and then come back a winner or with a checklist of things not to do !!

my story too has a happy ending !!

love you for ever .. yes that was my promise.. but as the cliché goes about promises.. yes they are meant to be broken.. i break all rules, i cheat, i steal, i kill your spirit .. your trust .. your confidence .. i kill you....



i live through my life by selfish rules and with immense faith and dedication towards these rules..

a good life it is .. women at my beck and call, money in my bank in heaps .. and huge heaps mind you .. parents who dote on me and idolize me.. a dutiful wife, children to pamper and who love and fear me.. what more could a man want.. peace ??

what about peace .. the noise inside tries to chide me .. i just calmly smile back .. that is peace.. people i have cheated are lost in the world of anonymity, so i am in peace here..if the game made me loose.. i changed the game.. if she left me .. i ensured she went to no one else either.. he tried to curb my path, now he cant find his way around his destiny..

i am on top and the world looks beautiful from here.. albeit a bit small.. a bit dirty .. a bit powerless .. but up here i am in peace..

i am not only in peace with myself .. i am now passing on this path of peace .. accomplishment.. spirituality to others who have faltered in their path..

many of my pupils are making me proud.. yes this also gives me peace...

the voice inside smiles.. he is battered but yet makes his opinion about me heard.. he tells me this wont last for ever .. he says i have to pay for the hurt .. the pain .. the pathos i created .... he says my end will be very painful.... i smile back...

it did come .. my end.. i was ready for it..
i had enough of Peace on Earth .. now let the party begin .. IN HELL !!

Fight for Peace ..

the attack on sri lankan cricket team once again brings us back to the most primitive of feeling.. survival..

we are cocooned smugly in our ivory towers built on the farce of money, power, believe of "this wont happen to me" that we refuse to see how vulnerable we are at the moment.

of course what can we do about a hoards of anti social elements who camouflage themselves as our neighbors, friends, acquaintance, stranger or a crowd .. right ?

well not necessarily..


first of all we need to accept the reality of today, uncertainty looms us like a giant dragon, destruction, his only motive..



we all need to be more aware of our surroundings .. not just walk on the street but see the street we walk on.. take ref checks very seriously even if its an new acquaintance or a co worker.. keep all the emergency numbers handy on your mobile and also hard copy of the same.. donate blood every 6 months .. so that you have enough blood reserve god forbidding if you ever need it.. and most of all be there to help people in distress.. tomorrow could be your turn to get the favor returned..

i have learned these lessons the harder way and follow them .. when peace is at threat .. we need to find all our weapons and win peace over ..

from the country whose endurance is legendary .. let us show the world that we are also a country that will stand for peace at any term even if that means fighting an inner battle.. conquering our fears and soaring high again as ONE UNITED FRONT against all our detractors !!

Vote for a better stronger stable India
Stand for what we believe in
Leave Religion out of politics and politics out of religion
Learn to empathize and stop being judgmental
Help others .. period
and Smile its not the end of the world .... yet :)

JAI HIND !!

Life is like that only !!

well so much for being a strong believer of the philosophy of "The Secrets", i surely have a long way to go :).. for those lesser mortals who are yet not enlightened by this philosophy, here is the shortest version of it as interpreted by me .. " ask and you shall get"

like i said i felt miserable that day and instead of applying secrets i glorified this feeling .. reveling somewhere deep inside that i am some psychic (which of course i would strongly disagree to if asked then)

so the universe said so be it.. i was going to Udaipur on official purpose.. and as i had predicted ... things went off the handle right from the airport.. For about an hour i could not locate the car that had come to pick me up, the scorching heat acted as lubricant to my temper which anyways does not need much encouragement.

to make things even worse the animated discussion I and the car driver were having for an hour drew a small amused crowd and finally a sympathetic man came up to me and said he would talk to the driver in local language to get clarification of the situation and there it was.... he was waiting for me in Jaipur airport and i was stranded at Udaipur airport .. Letters "J", " U" and "D" gained special importance in my life just then..

well now it seems funny but just then my world seemed to crumble and i mentally hugged myself waiting for further problems..

Due to massive mis communication (which is still an understatement) i was stranded in a city where there was no one from my office to help me with my work. after the initial panic got over and after a series of phone call to friends and work colleagues i felt i was ready for it all.. well all said too early...

the hotel i was booked in was called 'hotel hilltop" well for a reason .. it was actually over the hill.. that kinda freaked me.. it was an old palace converted into an hotel or so they told me.. at the reception not a soul .. wow what more could i ask for ... the rooms were white and huge and had an aura of old mystery and grandeur around it.. i double checked the huge white shower curtains, the window curtains, the door curtains for traces of spirit.. none i could see .. that dint do much to my composure as i believe you can feel them more than see them.. luckily for me i dint feel their presence inspite of my crazy anticipation.


well the silver lining was sure there .. i got help with my work from people whom i dint know until that day.. life is like that only.. you get pleasure when you dont seek it and sorrow when you feel it couldnt get worse.. just then it actually get a bit more worse.. as though sorrow is mocking you.. "hey buddy dont under estimate me"

my work got done smoothly in the two days of stay not only that the little adventure i had was fun.. i would not get an auto up the hill so i had to walk all the way down in my 6 inch platforms with the smoldering heat as my only company.. the spiraling way made me feel like transformed to another era where feet were the only mode of transport and i said a little prayer thanking god for petrol and automobile.. auto drivers rigged me off but i am still thankful to them as they really made efforts to locate the addresses of my destinations..i discovered that there are sculptures made from camel bone and also paintings done on flattened camel bone. i also discovered this beautiful city full of lakes, gardens.. handicraft and warm people..


in the past two days i have to thank so many strangers who have showered so many niceties on me without any expectation of returns. I am truly touched by these gestures ..

thanks manish, pramod, abdul, the auto drivers, rajesh, mr sonik,jigz, bro and nik


here are some of the pictures i took from my mobile.. Udaipur you rock

i forgot the name of these two lakes




this is called doodh talai.. story goes .. folks from udaipur would pour a glass of milk every day in this talai so it had become white as it contained milk.. but gradually as minds started getting devious, one man thought why not add half glass milk and half a glass of water .. then another thought.. in this milk why not add only water.. and gradually the talai began to contain only water n no doodh.. ironic


can you imagine a Kali Mata carved from tree trunk in a gardern in udaipur.. truly incredible India !!

future = uncertainty = fear = courage = success

have you felt totally disconnected from surroundings which till yesterday spelled nothing but familiarity .. love.. protection.. solitude.. most of all belonging.. gave you sense of identity.. a sense of belonging .. i off late feel i dont connect with anything around me.. its a bit weird since nothing around me has changed radically.. well whom am i kidding no where close to change either.. life is the same.. people around me are the same.. my work place is the same.. my friends n family are the same and yet i feel so different off late

Like I am preparing for this change that is going to hit my life and somewhere it does not make me that happy which is a bit scary. coz i am the kind of person who thrives on change as it makes me feel alive.. the sense of adventure .. new learning .. newness always has made me dizzy with a pleasure i cannot explain .. there is a gleam in my otherwise totally boring eyes ...

hmmm .. maybe i am hallucinating and maybe am not.. time alone as they say will tell.. untill then i have too many things to finish in present to worry too much about the future.. but then i feel change or wateva it is my future is standing in the dark corner .. waiting for an opportune time to unfold the mystery ..