my story too has a happy ending !!

love you for ever .. yes that was my promise.. but as the cliché goes about promises.. yes they are meant to be broken.. i break all rules, i cheat, i steal, i kill your spirit .. your trust .. your confidence .. i kill you....



i live through my life by selfish rules and with immense faith and dedication towards these rules..

a good life it is .. women at my beck and call, money in my bank in heaps .. and huge heaps mind you .. parents who dote on me and idolize me.. a dutiful wife, children to pamper and who love and fear me.. what more could a man want.. peace ??

what about peace .. the noise inside tries to chide me .. i just calmly smile back .. that is peace.. people i have cheated are lost in the world of anonymity, so i am in peace here..if the game made me loose.. i changed the game.. if she left me .. i ensured she went to no one else either.. he tried to curb my path, now he cant find his way around his destiny..

i am on top and the world looks beautiful from here.. albeit a bit small.. a bit dirty .. a bit powerless .. but up here i am in peace..

i am not only in peace with myself .. i am now passing on this path of peace .. accomplishment.. spirituality to others who have faltered in their path..

many of my pupils are making me proud.. yes this also gives me peace...

the voice inside smiles.. he is battered but yet makes his opinion about me heard.. he tells me this wont last for ever .. he says i have to pay for the hurt .. the pain .. the pathos i created .... he says my end will be very painful.... i smile back...

it did come .. my end.. i was ready for it..
i had enough of Peace on Earth .. now let the party begin .. IN HELL !!

Fight for Peace ..

the attack on sri lankan cricket team once again brings us back to the most primitive of feeling.. survival..

we are cocooned smugly in our ivory towers built on the farce of money, power, believe of "this wont happen to me" that we refuse to see how vulnerable we are at the moment.

of course what can we do about a hoards of anti social elements who camouflage themselves as our neighbors, friends, acquaintance, stranger or a crowd .. right ?

well not necessarily..


first of all we need to accept the reality of today, uncertainty looms us like a giant dragon, destruction, his only motive..



we all need to be more aware of our surroundings .. not just walk on the street but see the street we walk on.. take ref checks very seriously even if its an new acquaintance or a co worker.. keep all the emergency numbers handy on your mobile and also hard copy of the same.. donate blood every 6 months .. so that you have enough blood reserve god forbidding if you ever need it.. and most of all be there to help people in distress.. tomorrow could be your turn to get the favor returned..

i have learned these lessons the harder way and follow them .. when peace is at threat .. we need to find all our weapons and win peace over ..

from the country whose endurance is legendary .. let us show the world that we are also a country that will stand for peace at any term even if that means fighting an inner battle.. conquering our fears and soaring high again as ONE UNITED FRONT against all our detractors !!

Vote for a better stronger stable India
Stand for what we believe in
Leave Religion out of politics and politics out of religion
Learn to empathize and stop being judgmental
Help others .. period
and Smile its not the end of the world .... yet :)

JAI HIND !!

Life is like that only !!

well so much for being a strong believer of the philosophy of "The Secrets", i surely have a long way to go :).. for those lesser mortals who are yet not enlightened by this philosophy, here is the shortest version of it as interpreted by me .. " ask and you shall get"

like i said i felt miserable that day and instead of applying secrets i glorified this feeling .. reveling somewhere deep inside that i am some psychic (which of course i would strongly disagree to if asked then)

so the universe said so be it.. i was going to Udaipur on official purpose.. and as i had predicted ... things went off the handle right from the airport.. For about an hour i could not locate the car that had come to pick me up, the scorching heat acted as lubricant to my temper which anyways does not need much encouragement.

to make things even worse the animated discussion I and the car driver were having for an hour drew a small amused crowd and finally a sympathetic man came up to me and said he would talk to the driver in local language to get clarification of the situation and there it was.... he was waiting for me in Jaipur airport and i was stranded at Udaipur airport .. Letters "J", " U" and "D" gained special importance in my life just then..

well now it seems funny but just then my world seemed to crumble and i mentally hugged myself waiting for further problems..

Due to massive mis communication (which is still an understatement) i was stranded in a city where there was no one from my office to help me with my work. after the initial panic got over and after a series of phone call to friends and work colleagues i felt i was ready for it all.. well all said too early...

the hotel i was booked in was called 'hotel hilltop" well for a reason .. it was actually over the hill.. that kinda freaked me.. it was an old palace converted into an hotel or so they told me.. at the reception not a soul .. wow what more could i ask for ... the rooms were white and huge and had an aura of old mystery and grandeur around it.. i double checked the huge white shower curtains, the window curtains, the door curtains for traces of spirit.. none i could see .. that dint do much to my composure as i believe you can feel them more than see them.. luckily for me i dint feel their presence inspite of my crazy anticipation.


well the silver lining was sure there .. i got help with my work from people whom i dint know until that day.. life is like that only.. you get pleasure when you dont seek it and sorrow when you feel it couldnt get worse.. just then it actually get a bit more worse.. as though sorrow is mocking you.. "hey buddy dont under estimate me"

my work got done smoothly in the two days of stay not only that the little adventure i had was fun.. i would not get an auto up the hill so i had to walk all the way down in my 6 inch platforms with the smoldering heat as my only company.. the spiraling way made me feel like transformed to another era where feet were the only mode of transport and i said a little prayer thanking god for petrol and automobile.. auto drivers rigged me off but i am still thankful to them as they really made efforts to locate the addresses of my destinations..i discovered that there are sculptures made from camel bone and also paintings done on flattened camel bone. i also discovered this beautiful city full of lakes, gardens.. handicraft and warm people..


in the past two days i have to thank so many strangers who have showered so many niceties on me without any expectation of returns. I am truly touched by these gestures ..

thanks manish, pramod, abdul, the auto drivers, rajesh, mr sonik,jigz, bro and nik


here are some of the pictures i took from my mobile.. Udaipur you rock

i forgot the name of these two lakes




this is called doodh talai.. story goes .. folks from udaipur would pour a glass of milk every day in this talai so it had become white as it contained milk.. but gradually as minds started getting devious, one man thought why not add half glass milk and half a glass of water .. then another thought.. in this milk why not add only water.. and gradually the talai began to contain only water n no doodh.. ironic


can you imagine a Kali Mata carved from tree trunk in a gardern in udaipur.. truly incredible India !!

future = uncertainty = fear = courage = success

have you felt totally disconnected from surroundings which till yesterday spelled nothing but familiarity .. love.. protection.. solitude.. most of all belonging.. gave you sense of identity.. a sense of belonging .. i off late feel i dont connect with anything around me.. its a bit weird since nothing around me has changed radically.. well whom am i kidding no where close to change either.. life is the same.. people around me are the same.. my work place is the same.. my friends n family are the same and yet i feel so different off late

Like I am preparing for this change that is going to hit my life and somewhere it does not make me that happy which is a bit scary. coz i am the kind of person who thrives on change as it makes me feel alive.. the sense of adventure .. new learning .. newness always has made me dizzy with a pleasure i cannot explain .. there is a gleam in my otherwise totally boring eyes ...

hmmm .. maybe i am hallucinating and maybe am not.. time alone as they say will tell.. untill then i have too many things to finish in present to worry too much about the future.. but then i feel change or wateva it is my future is standing in the dark corner .. waiting for an opportune time to unfold the mystery ..

my first step..

my first entry to any literary contest. thanks pooja for informing me about the same.

Flash Fiction (also called micro-fiction or short-shorts) presents a simple challenge: tell a story with all the classical elements: a beginning, middle and end, a conflict and resolution, a credible protagonist.. but all this in a very limited number of words.

The story had to be told in 55 words or less

Theme

Cheating

Heres my entry


At work, he was restless until she meet, the steam they shared, left him wanting more. His wife asleep; she allured him. Her fire thawed away his loneliness. In the midst of all, they then led a separate life together.

He loved and he lost.. his life. Gleefully Nicotina sizzled on with her other lovers.



Results are out today.. din receive da all important call.. so guess they have a long way to go in terms of understanding my masterpieces .. he he

slumDOG Millionaire .. Who let these DoGs out ???

another movie about destitution, gluttony, corruption, exiguity, injustice, irony, deceit, conceit, prostitution and host of other wrong doing which exists in Bombay, in India, in Asia, in America, in the world..

so whats the USP of Slumdog Millionaire ???



A White man playing his favorite game " Mock the Brown " or closer home Indians !!

Since its a very popular sport of the influential few, it finds it self winning Golden Globe and being nominated for Oscars.

No wonder "Lagaan" dint make it big on the Oscars or Golden globe front as the story there was of us, the underdogs, bashing some white asses along with the white ego !! Touche !

What really surprises me is not the director's cheek but that of anil kapoor's (the senility of it has hit his head !) , who plays a callous, pompous and arrogant host of KBC. His professional life off late has been a bitch and this role must be the dream one knows will never come true (Shahrukh Khan knows better that even if the dream comes true .. it is red .. read as low TRP). You do stand as the strongest contender to "The Wanna BE celeb of the year" award. So don't whine .. even if you don't win the oscars, (oops you haven't been nominated) but you do win my special award.

Amitabh Bachchan had set an unreachable president of an elegant and endearing host of KBC. Through KBC he again established the fact that his is the true Super star of all times with his distinct charisma, humbleness, wit, aura, well i could go on and on. He won over million hearts again by his courtesy, humane approach,demeanor and respect for each of the participants which came from with in and cannot be faked through the tv lenses.

This surely is an insult to him. His discontent is more than justified.

I quote ABs comment below

“projects India as [a] Third World dirty underbelly developing nation and causes pain and disgust among nationalists and patriots”.

No wonder he is the man with million hearts resonating his name.


Well the moral of my story here

We Let the DOGS OuT !!

If we Indians cannot contribute towards making India a better place to live then

Stop being part of Brigade "Defame India!"


BTW this is my reaction to 15 mins of divided view of the movie between my popcorn, my orange juice and comfort of my couch ,, which by the way all of a sudden became more interesting.. (for those white guys reading this, we do have couches in India !!)

So those who have seen the movie.. Poor you !! and those who haven't seen it, please read the book "1000 ways to utilize your time in a better way" or go for the movie Luck by chance !

movies i wanna c now r seven pound, marley and me, delli 6, Dev D .. big list eh .. leave me your comments on them ..

nik send me this link and i loved it .. hope this one throws in more light

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l43Bbn2Xpwk

Driving .. me Nuts !!

my life was beautiful.. almost perfect.. and then i fine day i joined the driving school!!




the most sophisticated vehicle i had driven so far was a hero cycle, so the moment i hit the road, it was like da whole world is conspiring against me & will hit me before i blink.. my reflexes have always been slow, and now was time i was cursing it the most. i am a very reasonable person but my driving teacher would really rile me with his insensitive remarks. so ya in shot the whole world truly was conspiring.

got my driving license like a piece of cake. that was when it hit me that its the easiest thing to get in India and what lay ahead freaked me even more.. any demented loony could be on the same or other side of the road waiting to attack me !!

Nothing really prepares you for hitting the road alone the first time, i had taken lots of advice from my friends and the advices were remembered and applied depending upon the years of driving experience of my buddies. As expected Murphy 's law worked not just once but twice .. i banged twice in a gap of 20 mins.. my life was rocking.. literally.

after that it was from a series of mistakes i learned how to drive safe.

i now fear only other cars, bikes, suvs, trucks and buses.. no longer scared of cycles and scooties.. ya i have come a long way..

earlier i would sit beside my friends, hear them swear like crazy and from my high pedestal reprimand them for using abusive language.i have graduated there too.. now i use the choicest of swear words that my father refuses to go on a drive with me..
so guys i totally empathize with you when you abuse.. these dumb @$7^ers so deserve it !!

i in past would hate to get my way around the world by using the fact that am a girl. now i blatantly abuse that fact. If a smile guarantees help in parking it right .. then what the heck why not?? if that helps in not getting a ticket.. sure it warrants a sweet smile.. hell i dint know the power of smile.. untill now !!

well once i master the art of driving the smiles will of course disappear.. my faithful grunge will be back .. untill then say cheeeese :)