only one chance to make a beginning

usually i hate to travel by train as it brings the view of poverty notch closer than i have to bear anyways..

unfortunately today i couldn't give the train a miss. i met this old punjabi lady who was selling bags, she was suffering from Alzheimer and was very feeble.. the aura she had around herself was royal.. she didn't want our sympathy nor our empathy, like the little boys and girls she too was selling her ware. she couldn't scream out marketing slogans highlighting the usp of her bags but there was something about her that made everyone take notice of her. i guess it was her persona that took me by awe.

usually i don't dig into others business but i had this huge urge to talk to her..to know her.. maybe that was because she resembled my grand ma or maybe she looked so royal or maybe coz i saw a connection which to explain via words is not possible for me..

by the time the internal debate bout approaching her had reached its conclusion, she got down from the train.. and i am left only with the bags i bought from her to remind me of her..

we get only one chance to make a beginning.. if we don't grab it with both hands we will never get it back.. i do feel disappointed that i could not get to talk to her.. will never get to know her..

actually this has happened quite a few times with me.. and i guess it does happen to all of us sometimes..you meet someone and there is this instant connect, this bond which is invisible or you exchange words over the phone with someone or chat up some one on the internet and you feel that person is so much in ease with you and vise verse

but many a times we loose out opportunity to make something substantial out of it because of the internal debate whether we should be friend a stranger .. maybe its from our experience with people we know.. who have been a part of our lives .. and whom we have helped and comforted in all the ways we know.. have all of a sudden have abandoned us. that feeling of hurt.. betrayal.. has had such a deep impact on our minds.. hearts and soul that today we do not want to get into something new and then go through the same cycle of knowing.. caring.. loving.. trusting and then getting betrayed by them ..

we are weary .. with a very solid reason to trust someone new..

But then what a life will it be if we sit on the fence and not try new things.. life will pass by us and we will stand by all alone definitely Unhappy...

So true .. only one chance to make a beginning .. need to grab it.. may be it will be the key to future happiness or may frizzle out of our lives.. but atleast an attempt to make our life more happy is made in the process.